.Friday, January 25, 2008 ' 9:08 PM
I feel really bad.. besides head ache and pain in my legs because of working out I feel something inside that is worst than having a head ache and leg pain..
I can't explain this.. all I can say is that I feel like yelling at myself! I want to scold myself for being so selfish, for always being unsatisfied.
when i was younger, I never always get what I wanted, I always had to follow rules by my mom. I had a normal child hood. I didn't get too much or too little of everything, jus enough. So you can't say I have been spoiled.. but now I act like a spoild brat.. a spoiled gf...
I want to be special always.. i want to have more of everything. In short, I never get contented..
and ARG!! I don't think its good but I cant control it! I get sad because I feel like I want more and I feel sad because I am so selfish!!
I really don't know what to do!! I want more but I know that more is too much. I know that I have to be satisfied with what I have but I just cant accept it.. I need to.. ACCEPT what I get and what I have.... but how?!
Labels: bitterness, Life, love