.Friday, January 25, 2008 ' 9:08 PM

I feel really bad.. besides head ache and pain in my legs because of working out I feel something inside that is worst than having a head ache and leg pain..

I can't explain this.. all I can say is that I feel like yelling at myself! I want to scold myself for being so selfish, for always being unsatisfied.

when i was younger, I never always get what I wanted, I always had to follow rules by my mom. I had a normal child hood. I didn't get too much or too little of everything, jus enough. So you can't say I have been spoiled.. but now I act like a spoild brat.. a spoiled gf...

I want to be special always.. i want to have more of everything. In short, I never get contented..

and ARG!! I don't think its good but I cant control it! I get sad because I feel like I want more and I feel sad because I am so selfish!!

I really don't know what to do!! I want more but I know that more is too much. I know that I have to be satisfied with what I have but I just cant accept it.. I need to.. ACCEPT what I get and what I have.... but how?!

Labels: bitterness, Life, love

.Wednesday, January 09, 2008 ' 10:20 PM

I have two things to say.

First the good stuff.
I went to an exam today. Market Communication, the subject where I have a deadly teacher who always makes you feel like the things you say are wrong and who always gave me 4 (bellow average) grade, I was lucky to get 7 (average grade) in out last class card, so can you imagine how I felt when I found out that we have an exam in his subject and right after the xmas holidays?

Well I don't know why I keep on being lucky with all this exams because believe it or not (I cant believe it myself) I got a 12 (top grade) once again. I guess 1 week of revising payed off really well =) I wish I'm as lucky as this in all the other exam I am going to have. I really need a high average for the course I want to take, last time I checked it was an average of 10, though I'm not sure if it also apply to danish students or if its just the admision grade for students outside dk, I hope so! 10 is a very high average, I will need 12 in most of my exams to get that average.


so.. the next thing I'm going to tell is my sleeping habit, ladies and gentlemen I am having sleeping problem again! seriously 3 days in a row?!! I fall asleep around 3-4 am and its not really funny when you have to wake up 6 in the morning to prepare for school!
I do not know what the cause of this is. Perhaps because I've been sleeping until noon in the holidays and now its payback time ? eerrh its not funny at all! I feel sleepy but once I lay down I cannot fall asleep. tsk...



why oh why? I used to love sleeping? Before I could just sleep anytime I want..

Labels: dailytale, School

.Tuesday, January 01, 2008 ' 9:30 PM

First of all I want to greet everyone a happy happy new year! Wish you all the best in 2008!
I cant believe the first day of two thousand and eight is almost over i am excited of what ever this year will bring. I hope that 2008 will give me great experience which I can learn from so that I can turn out to be a confident woman, wew, hehe. But really i wish that 2008 will be a good year for all of us. I also want it to go fast so that I wont have to wait too long for 2009 , hehe joke joke. Let 2008 take the time it wants as long as it teaches us great lessons that we can use in the future.

I will have one year new years resolution this year but I will keep it as a secret, I really hope I can keep this resolution coz actually this i've been planning to do it few months before newyears i just couldnt make myself do it.. my other goal for 2008 is ofcourse keep being a good person, I know I can be bad sometimes(most of the times towards my bf) but I will try my best to change my attitude, I dont need the new years to be the reason why I am making this promise of an attitude change. I will do it because I want to, because I need to. Now, dont think I am so bad, its just that sometimes I can be unfair towards my bf but he still loves me and we still love each other so its not that bad. But I have to admit that i haven't been really nice last year, I think that this past couple of months I've had my head up too high.. and I want to change that..

Once again! i wish you all the best in 2008!! Don't forget to love the people around you =)

Labels: dailytale